I once thought I lived in an ivory tower, constantly swimming about in my own mind. I thought I lived too much inside my own head, then something great happened. Fortunately, in my mind, I realized that I’m not an ivory tower snob (not yet anyways, and hopefully never). Sure, I am a man who likes to read and think. I am an introvert who is prone to rehearse ideas within the spacious confines between my ears, but that doesn’t make me an ivory tower dweller. I don’t own a tweed coat or smoke a pipe (Not yet, anyways).
I don’t pretend to have all the answers. In fact, I’m pretty darn sure I have a very small amount of answers. That’s the tricky thing. The more you learn, the more you learn that you don’t know anything. And the more you know you don’t know anything the more you just want to hang up the cleats and get lost in a binge viewing of a TV series on Netflix. Or at least I do.
Quite honestly, sometimes I’m on the verge of selling all I have and starting a life of passive consumption. Sometimes I want to not make any waves and use any talents or passions that I have for any benefit for myself or others.
But what is holding me back?
It has to be my view of eschatology- that this world is not the end.
I know that this Jesus, the one who was crucified, buried, and rose from the grave also ascended to heaven. He is seated at the right hand of the Father and will one day come again in glory. One day he shall return, and (if he doesn’t return first) one day I will die. One day I will stand before the throne and will have to look him in the eye, and I don’t want to say that my life was a loss here. That the wealth I possessed, the opportunity I was afforded in the USA, and the gifts I was given were squandered for fleeting moments of pleasure. I want to live my life well and live life to the fullest.
Sure, I probably will never compose a great symphony or found a major hospital. All I need to do though is to use the gifts that God has given me. I don’t have to imitate Bach or Mother Theresa. I get to be me. And if I honor God in my life, if I am formed, slowly but surely, into the image of Jesus, then I’ll be just fine.
Maybe I’ll watch one less episode today and do something of worth, bringing glory to the Crucified and Risen Lord.
What are some things that might hold you back or nudge you forward?