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    Tracking Trains

    Have you ever chosen to take a day away from it all?  Take a vacation from life and enter into a space dedicated to the pursuit of peace?  Recently, I took a day away from the normal grind, and I am so glad I did.

    It’s amazing what happens when I disconnect from the world for a day.  Good things seems to happen when I give myself permission to step away from my own heightened sense of my own self importance, choosing to simply be instead of constantly doing.

    Fortunately, I am a part of an organization that has a culture of personal care and development.  One of those aspects is rooted in the need to have a retreat day, a day that is set apart from normal business, a day set apart from the mental noise that fights for control.  In that day I disconnect from a lot of the noisemakers in my life: no emails, calls, letter writing, or office work.  It’s just me and God.

    Sound easy?  Well, I hate to burst bubbles, but it’s not.

    Each time I do it though, I find out just how addicted to a busy life I am.  Quite frankly, I live for a full lifestyle.  I simply do not function well if my plate is constantly full with no outlet— I need to have an underlining principle of rest, otherwise I will implode.  Especially as an introvert, I need this constantly.

    When I unplug, who I perceive myself to be is removed and I am forced to confront who I really am.  I am forced to deal with my baggage instead of running away from it.  My dreams and fears come out to play as well in my mind, and they take over like a tree full of screaming monkeys.

    That’s why I need Jesus.

    I need him to strengthen me in my fears.  I need him to rightly order my dreams and assure me about my place in his house.  It is there, when I have to confront my inner monologue that I need to lean on Christ.  When life is relentless, I need to be reminded of who I am by pausing for one day a month or an hour every day.

    If it seems like you just aren’t good enough and the inner monologue dominates your psyche, then I hope you consider taking time away from the daily grind and just be.  It just might be worth the pain.

    Have you ever chosen to unplug?

    Photo: Dawn Ellner via Compfight

  • Great reminder, Jeremy. Yes, I’m the same way. If I begin to get that “not good enough” feeling, then I KNOW I’ve taken my eyes off of His Truth.

    • That feeling does indeed rise up often. I’m so glad that Holy Spirit will comfort us when the attacks role in

  • Great thoughts, Jeremy. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. I have not allowed enough margin in my life – time to just be. I too am addicted to busyness. It’s in those still moments that a loneliness comes over me, which seems to be my thirsty soul crying out for God. Those still moments force me to confront my pain, loneliness, and fears, as I see that all of my efforts have still left me unfulfilled. Only Jesus can satisfy.

    • You’re absolutely right, busyness is addictive. And the thing is we can’t even find an exit off the highway of perpetual noise!

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