Tracking Trains

Have you ever chosen to take a day away from it all?  Take a vacation from life and enter into a space dedicated to the pursuit of peace?  Recently, I took a day away from the normal grind, and I am so glad I did.

It’s amazing what happens when I disconnect from the world for a day.  Good things seems to happen when I give myself permission to step away from my own heightened sense of my own self importance, choosing to simply be instead of constantly doing.

Fortunately, I am a part of an organization that has a culture of personal care and development.  One of those aspects is rooted in the need to have a retreat day, a day that is set apart from normal business, a day set apart from the mental noise that fights for control.  In that day I disconnect from a lot of the noisemakers in my life: no emails, calls, letter writing, or office work.  It’s just me and God.

Sound easy?  Well, I hate to burst bubbles, but it’s not.

Each time I do it though, I find out just how addicted to a busy life I am.  Quite frankly, I live for a full lifestyle.  I simply do not function well if my plate is constantly full with no outlet— I need to have an underlining principle of rest, otherwise I will implode.  Especially as an introvert, I need this constantly.

When I unplug, who I perceive myself to be is removed and I am forced to confront who I really am.  I am forced to deal with my baggage instead of running away from it.  My dreams and fears come out to play as well in my mind, and they take over like a tree full of screaming monkeys.

That’s why I need Jesus.

I need him to strengthen me in my fears.  I need him to rightly order my dreams and assure me about my place in his house.  It is there, when I have to confront my inner monologue that I need to lean on Christ.  When life is relentless, I need to be reminded of who I am by pausing for one day a month or an hour every day.

If it seems like you just aren’t good enough and the inner monologue dominates your psyche, then I hope you consider taking time away from the daily grind and just be.  It just might be worth the pain.

Have you ever chosen to unplug?

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