Believing is important. Signing off on a belief though is not necessarily the most important thing.
In other words, we don’t have to get everything right. Getting everything right is not necessarily the most important thing for a follower of Christ.
If I can be honest for a moment, I want to state for the record that I am big into believing someone when it comes to Christianity. But belief in this context is not necessarily about passing a theological pop quiz on something or the SAT for Spirituality. No, belief is placing your trust in someone— trusting in Christ. It’s like placing your trust in the strength of a chair when you sit down after a long day.
Even when it comes to believing in something as sure as a chair, sometimes you can have your seemingly routine faith shaken. There are moments when your confidence in a chair will be shaken, that’s what happened to me a couple of years ago (*cue flashback sequence*).
One day a co-worker played a practical joke on me and wedged a sharpened pencil into my chair at work. It was meant to be spotted before I sat down in the chair, after all who doesn’t spot a brand new pencil on their chair? Answer: This guy.
Even though he tried to stop me from sitting down, this practical joke turned into a stinging pain. Thankfully, there was no major damage besides my ego, and now it’s pretty funny to remember. However, it took me months and months to rely on chairs again for places of comfort and safety. I lost my hope in chairs, if you will, and had to check every chair I sat on for many months. I could not simply sit down and relax without thinking. No, I was not confident in the reliability of chairs and was worried that another sharpened No. 2 pencil could be lurking on every park bench and sofa.
Even though my faith was shaken, I still had to sit. It is true that I have a standing desk at work now, but I simply cannot go through life standing for decades. No, I needed to develop an assurance in chairs again (seriously though, this event really made me hesitant to sit down!). Chair by chair, I relearned to trust in chairs again (quit laughing!).
See, I don’t have to get everything right. I don’t have to get my theology right or develop a rational approach to chair sitting. At the risk of sounding absurd: I had to put my trust in chairs again. Certainly, having sound theology or a sound rational approach to chairs might be important, but it’s not the most important thing. The most important thing is belief in Jesus, having a trust in him even when things get shaky.
Perhaps you haven’t had a pencil situation. Maybe, it’s more along the lines of trusting in God– trusting in him when all is lost. I hope and pray that you might consider giving it another shot. During tough times, when my faith is shaken, I look to the Psalms. I read those ancient songs and poems, for they express the emotions of humanity in raw form. They express anger, sorrow, loneliness, joy, and despair. Even though every emotion is on display, the common theme through the entire songbook of Israel is that the writers placed their trust in the LORD.
Even when things got dark. Even when things got shaky, they trusted in the LORD.
I hope you might consider becoming big on believing, even when things get dicey.