Have you ever taken a corner too quickly and feel the center of gravity inch you ever so closer to tipping over your car? Have you ever went too fast over a hill with a steep grade and you catch a little bit of air off the hill? How about when you hit an unexpected speed bump and the coffee cup flies out of the drink holder and the bag flips over in the frontseat of the car? Hopefully I’m not the only one here.
How about when your life hits something unexpected like a pothole or a deer? Sometimes we don’t know if a good week will turn into a mediocre week or if an OK week will descend into the pit of hell. That knowledge is simply outside of our range of vision. Regardless, life is relentless and things happen.
I am reminded of the psalmist who wrote,
By the rivers of Babylon— there we sat down and there we wept when we remembers Zion. On the willows there we hung up our harps. For there our captors asked us for songs, and our tormentors asked for mirth, saying, ‘Sing us one of the songs of Zion!’” (Ps 137:1-2)
Can you imagine yourself in captivity and being mocked by people? Can you imagine yourself crying over the destruction of your home and feeling deep anger over the violence done to you and your loved ones?
The psalmist ends the writing with incredible anger and a shocking amount of raw emotion.
Perhaps you have been there, in the pit of despair and anger, cursing both God and others (it really is an easy place to end up). Perhaps you’ve been in a personal nightmare, and it leaves you in near hopelessness.
When injustice happens, plans fail, and sharp elbows are tossed at your nose, I want you to know that it’s OK to lash out at God and tell him everything that’s on your mind. Tell him off, because through this courage you can encounter intimacy with the One who formed you in your mother’s womb. God meets you in your emotional wrestling match (dive into the Psalms and see for yourself). Through this brutal honesty, God will meet you in the valley of despair. Through your honesty, healing can finally begin.